There is one thing I have to say about life right now: I am so glad that God knows better than me! Looking back over the last few years I can see seasons and situations where I thought I had God’s best. After a time, God took away what I wanted and what I thought was what He wanted for me. Honestly? I was so frustrated at God because I thought I knew better than Him and that He had made a mistake. Now, in retrospect, I see that it was no mistake at all and I am incredibly grateful that God didn’t give me what I wanted! I am also thankful that God’s plan was bigger and better than what I had settled for. Never in a million years would I ever want to go back in time to have those things again. Although at the time I was happy and at then later hurt, I can truly say I’m glad to have a God who will do what is best for me even though I may complain, kick and scream, and question Him in the process. I can only hope that the next time God makes a change I don’t understand that I will remember the lesson I learned from the past and trust that God is doing what’s best for me even though I can’t see or understand; for His ways are higher than my ways.
This reminds me of a message I heard once. The speaker showed us a picture that was half dark and half light. He said that sometimes we look at our lives and we complain that there is this dark part here, and not more light parts there, and we think that we can do a lot better job than God painting the portrait of our life. But then, he said, if we were able to see it from God’s perspective we would realize that what we were seeing was only a small part of the big picture. And when he said that he zoomed out and the picture ended up being the Mona Lisa. And so, he said, in the same way that Leonardo knew what he was doing when he pianted her smile, we should trust God that He knows what He’s doing when He’s busy painting our lives, because He can take something that looks just like a dark line and turn it into a smile.
Hey Babe i love what you wrote you truely do understand how God wants the very best for you. And i see in your life he blessed you with so much more than you could ever imagine back then. Im glad he opened your eyes to what was in front of you:) i love you and im so thankful for you and i love your sonnet by the way:)
your best friend,
Christy